The Flame Within

When I connect deeply with myself, I can, for moments, see clearly who I truly am…love, light, innocence, purity, goodness, soft, pliable, relaxed, resilient, free. It’s an extraordinary view that evokes feelings of potential and excitement. Oh, to be free and untethered like a wild horse. Playing, roaming, being…beautiful, strong, free, and present in the field, in nature, in community.

I see her now as I write this. Galloping, playing, mane blowing in the breeze. A silhouette against the sky. She is exhilaration embodied – she is fully alive. I want to be her. In the beginning of connecting deeper to my true self, those visions were fleeting and exciting. They opened and closed as quickly as they came. My ego, fear, and the demands of modern life would rush in, saying, “You can’t actually live that way, you know.” And just like that, the feeling was lost. Touched for a moment and gone before I was sure I felt or experienced anything real.

I feel sadness knowing that potential exists while my ego and fear-driven existence take charge. But gratefully, the vision lights a flame that grows each time I check back in with myself. By coming back to center and caring for myself, I maintain and grow the fire, the freedom, the feeling, and the connection to my pure, beautiful, potential-filled existence.